Yea!

this is how I feel tonight… The Grateful Dead

anybody have a bed I can borrow
I would just like to hide under the
sheets for a while

Steamroller

my mind is running away
like a steam roller
on a hot summer day
flattening everything
in its path
sort of like the cartoons
where the flat thing
gets up and shakes itself
off only to get rolled
over again, and again,
and again
I have been flattened

My Life

I live my life the best I can
which includes the pains of life
the ones that hurt the physical
and others kill the emotional

wanting to scream of the agony
but always keep it in
don’t hurt me again if you will
and go and dream of your friends (ex)

the legs are screaming, so is the head
this moon is causing too much pain
with it’s ups and downs and all arounds
enjoy her for she is your friend

I feel people should see me clearly
but they tend to miss the point
I shoot straight, right in your face
not disguised behind metaphors

so I shall open my eyes and let them tear
I’m blaming it on the moon
she’s not good to me this harvest
and I know she will be gone soon

She’s here

on this full harvest moon
I am waiting for the pain

She

so many people

so many places

so many feelings

so little time

 

I give, I take

I want, I shake

all for the sake of

her little green eyes

Travel On

I wrote this one over a year ago and found it in a file this morning. I have come far from here so do not think this is me now.

Travel On

divorce and depression
walk together side by side
never letting go of the other
holding on by the will of satan

I can’t break loose, stuck in
the muck and mire of a golden hoof
everything falling around me
as I sleep away the possibilities
of life

yes, I left you, yes I wanted to
yes, I needed to, yes, I left you
and what I thought was the main
move, all it seems to have done
was to give me room for depression

I need to get up, need to stand again
need to walk down the street with my
head held high, not down at my feet
preparing myself for the major fall
for it all,
just giving up as I careen
the sidewalks, kicking dust as I go
don’t cha know
I need to rise through the ashes of her
All of her, nothing left unturned
Then
I might be ok to travel on

Sings me a tune

whittle me attle
along with a song
a tale to play
come one in the dawn

some cheerios for breakfast
a sandwich log for the lunch
a song be for dinner
that is me hunch

so lets rattle them timbers
send them hooties twards the air
come dance with me woman
it’s time to not care

oh swingies, oh swingies
hips joining to the ground
back up once again
feet flat with a pound

we dance all night
singin a tons of a song
ahhe me partner
there tis the light dawn

twas a song she called for
tis a song she has now
with the harmony of many
and a dream upon a vow

In Case

In case I fall in love again
I will remember not to feign
I shall let the new consume my soul
till I am floating of her breath

In case I fall in love again
I shall present her to my gods
asking them to allow us peace
in a world so ridden with strife

In case I fall in love again
my tears will be ready to flow
not the ones that hurt the heart
but the ones that joy the soul

In case I fall in love again
there will be no lies or stories told
they never helped anyway
so away with them they go

In case I fall in love again
I will want to ride it till the end
this will be my third time out
and that will be enough for me

In case I fall in love again
has already come
we share our truths together
and talk about the sun

In case I fall in love again
the beauty of its being
it has saved me from eternity
with just a flick and a fleeing