the mornings pain
results no gain
a tear, a twist
its all insane


Not The First

as I sit scraping the sands of time from my eyes
I can’t help but wonder where we have been before
how long were we in any of those lives together
how many of them did we speak those sacred words
to each other, for I know this is not the first of times

She Shut Down

my mind went free
there has been so much happiness
going on that I let it go
not thinking that another
may not be able to handle my thoughts
they shut her down
not that I am thinking bad thoughts
it is just that I have too many thoughts
I blame Libra for that
not being able to balance my scales
this way is this
and this way is that
and in the middle is this other thing
and I asked her opinion
she shut down
I should have known she would
it has happened before
but my mind was so full of my thoughts
I did not remember she
only me, and my thoughts that asked her
she is not that way
just tell and lead the way
she is happy to play
but my mind went free tonight
opened up wide for all to see
which she did
and went quiet
asked me politely to do so
but she did
and my thoughts decided the answer

I Woke Alone

I woke up alone again today
with the wilderness of tears
having marked my place

I woke up alone again today
with the streams of loneliness
the bull shit of tears along my face

I woke up alone again today
just solitude for joy, pain, and sorrow
to explain so deep within no ones gain

I woke up alone again today
thinking, dreaming remembrances
of lustful urges gone nowhere

I woke up alone again today
sitting up in the sweat filled dungeon of no one
remembering the sweet smells of… love?